August 20, 2010. That's the last time I've made a post on my blog. Almost five months. Do I regret it? No.
People go through seasons, that's what my pastor would always say. You can't force seasons to come early, or late, or stay longer, or be brief. Seasons happen.
What happens if you buy oranges that are not in season? They taste sour. Just not right.
I hope you're getting my drift here.
I had a very long and dry (I'd say summer because personally, I hate summer) season. I had problems with my relationships, I had problems at work, heck! I had problems with myself. Looking back, I wouldn't have taken another route because the experiences only made me stronger and smarter in life. I am what I am because of those stages I've gone through. I've read somewhere that being at the rock bottom is good. It's solid ground, so you have that option to turn around and rise up.
I'd like to believe that "spring" is coming for me now. My drought is over.
And for you who's wondering how you got here reading my blog, if you're in a tight spot, in an ugly situation, or in a bad "season"; it may be that your relationship is a failure or your finances are dwindling down, whatever it is...spring will come again. :)
I quit my job and flew to Singapore for a holiday in October, but due to some unavoidable circumstances my brother wasn't able to join me. I actually vacayed ALONE (my first time) and I loved it. It was my me-time.
Just so to deviate from my normal routine whenever I go on a holiday, I didn't make an itinerary, I didn't even book a hotel. I free-styled all the way, with a map in hand.
I stayed at a bed and breakfast, I walked most of the time, visited some temples, went to China town and discovered a quaint vegan restaurant at the heart of it, saw the Merlion and the vast botanical gardens, road the MRTs just to eat hawker food and I was able to squeeze in a night out with a college friend. I was often seen wandering along the riverside quay, I got to have the best mojitos from a small tacqueria, and I've met some interesting people from other parts of the world. I slept without setting the alarm and had long naps, and I even had a haircut from a Japanese salon.
While in Singapore, I cave in to smoking (after three months off of it) but also in Singapore, I have decided to smoke my last pack for the rest of my life. It has been three months since I've had my last ciggie and I'm doing just fine.
I am still jobless at the moment but the good side of it is that I have been spending time with my sisters and brother. Too bad that my other sister is away, we would've been complete. As told on my old post, we hang out, watch movies, go shopping, eat out, go running (in no particular order). I had the best NYE with them when we attended a countdown and partied after. I didn't get to stay with my Pops but we saw him often too. In fact, we spent NYD with him, we had lunch and just talked the day away. I'm staying at my Mum's house with my sisters and brother. We're always on Skype with Mum and stepdad who are in the UK now.
I paid grandma a visit. I'm glad she's healthy and doing fine and at 80 years old, she is REALLY FINE! She is an amazing woman and she inspires me.
I also spent time with my relatives from my Mum's side and reconnect with those from my Pops's side. I had so much fun with my relatives.
My family is unconventional but it works. And we're happy, we get along fine. That's what matters.
I also went to see some good friends. Good friends--not acquaintances. At this point in my life, I have decided to prioritize my relationships and they'll be God, family, and good friends (in that exact order, no exemptions). So far, I've been doing well. I no longer waste time with petty chats and useless banter. It gives me more time for myself or other priorities. You guys should give it a try.
It's 2011 and I'm believing for breakthroughs in my life. I'll be a year older next year but a year wiser too.
Spring has come again.
